Because today i feel like i have to curse

I curse myself for turning into a wall
I curse my faith cause it doesn´t want to go
I curse myself for not trying to go on
I curse my mouth for remaining shut when words had to flow
I curse myself for feeling regret
I curse my mind for turning white
I curse it now for all the things it has
I curse my will for beeing so hard to controle
I curse the people around who tell me to forget
I curse the world for being a damned cold place
I curse the cigarrete im about to smoke
I curse my E mail 4 being blocked
And i curse the fucking humor life´s got....or maybe not